25 April 1999
T. Rouse
In Crossing to Avalon, Jean Shinoda Bolen writes:
Once we enter (the labyrinth), ordinary time and distance are immaterial, we are in the midst of a ritual and a journey where a transformation is possible; we do not know how far away or close we are to the center where meaning can be found until we are there; the way back is not obvious and we have no way of knowing as we emerge how or when we will take the experience back into the world until we do. There are no blind ends in the labyrinth, the path often doubles back on itself, the direction toward which we are facing is continually changing, and if we do not turn back or give up we will reach the center. To return to ordinary life, we must again travel the labyrinth to get out, which is also a complex journey for it involves integrating the experience into consciousness, which is what changes us.
Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
by Portia Nelson
I I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost…I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.
II I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I am in the same place. But it isn’t my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.
III I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in. It is a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
IV I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
V I walk down another street.
So here we sit. On the verge of, yet again, another ending of another school year. This time of year means something different for every one of us. And, yet, for every one of us—it surely means something. To my younger friends, it means summer is coming—sleeping late, summer sports, summer jobs, no thought of pencils or books or teachers anything. To my high school senior friends it means the ending and beginning of something big. The road they have traveled for a lifetime is changing—what was once a residential street with a low-posted speed limit now appears to be an on-ramp…..to something that isn’t quite clear, but is clearly quite big. The same is true, in many ways, for my college graduate-ing friends…..the sign up ahead says REAL WORLD….and there is no turning back or slowing down—except for maybe graduate school. For those of you who are parents or grandparents and the like or whoever—this time of year means something different—maybe vacations are on the horizon—or far-off visitors are set to invade or life just takes on a different kind of pace. Regardless of our place and position, summer is coming. And summer means something. Like it or not, the ending of the school year—the beginning of this sweltering season--signals a fork of some sort in almost all of our roads. Which way will you choose?
Maybe this summer you will decide to finally complete that project at home or begin the one that has been on your list for three years. Maybe this summer is when you finally decide to go see your family. Maybe this summer is when you really do catch up on some reading. Maybe this summer is when you really do start exercising or at least moving your body a little every day. Maybe this summer you really do write them a letter. Maybe this summer you really do decide to slow down and get serious about God. Maybe this summer is the time when you decide to show your kids that church is a priority. Or maybe this is the summer when all of those things just continue to go undone—ending up on a tattered "to-do" list.
So what do we do? Which road do we follow? Which way do we choose?
"I am the way," Jesus said. I am the road. And, in some way or another, we are all on the road that is his—that is he—or at least that’s what we hope and pray. That is why we are here. There is not a single shoe in this place that does not contain a foot of clay—a foot that drags, a foot that stumbles--but it is on just such feet we all seek to follow God’s road through a world where there are many other roads to follow—and hardly a one of them that is not more clearly marked and easier to tramp and toward an end more known and more assured. But we have picked this road—or it has picked us.
"I am the way," Jesus said, "the truth and the life." We have all come this far along the WAY. And from time to time, when we have at least some sense of a clue, when our hearts are in the right place, when nothing more exciting or pressing shows up to distract us, we have glimpsed the TRUTH. From time to time when the complex and tiresome and seductive busy-ness of living doesn’t get in our way our pulses have quickened to the pulse of that LIFE. Who knows—anyway—what the mysteries of our faith mean? Who knows what the Holy Spirit means? Who knows what the Resurrection means? Who knows what he means when he tells us that whenever two or three are gathered together in his name he will be with them. But –what at the very least they all seem to mean is that there winds through life a WAY of life—a way TO life—that is so vastly realer still that we cannot think of God—whose WAY it is—as anything less than vastly alive.
It is by GRACE we are on that way…….by grace we feel in our bones what it is like to be on that way. Our clay feet drag us to the bedroom of the sick woman—to the alcoholic who for tenth time has called as we sit down to supper—to the Bible study group or Sunday School class where nobody has done any studying—to the Xerox machine. We don’t want to go. We go in fear of the terrible needs of the ones we go to. We go in fear of our OWN emptiness from which it is hard to believe that any word or deed of help or hope or healing can come. But we go because it is God’s way that leads us. And again and again we are blessed by our going in ways that we can never anticipate and our going becomes a blessing to the ones we go to because when we follow the way of Christ—we never really go entirely alone. And it is always something more than just our selves and just our emptiness that we bring.
Our business is to be the hands and feet and mouth of one who has no other hands or feet or mouth except our own. So many of us it seems—have two jobs, then. Or four or twenty. Because our business is to work for Christ as surely as men and women work for presidents of banks or managers of stores or principals of schools. Whatever salary you draw from your job—wherever or whatever that may be—whatever benefits you receive –your true compensation will only come from Christ. Whatever real success you have will be measured finally in terms of not how well you please anyone else in the world—but only Christ. And I suspect that the successes that please him best are oftentimes the ones we don’t even notice.
All along Christ is there with us…..with us on OUR WAY as surely as the way itself is there that has brought us to this place. IT has brought us. We are here. God is with us—that is our faith—but in unseen ways as subtle as air. TS Eliot says it as poignantly as anybody—
Wait without hope—for hope would be hope of the wrong thing—wait without love—for love would be love of the wrong thing—there is yet FAITH. But the faith and the love and the hope are ALL in the waiting. Wait without thought—for you are not ready for thought. So the darkness shall be light—and the stillness the dancing.
Richard Foster gives us a visual of the WAY---the life following after God…
He writes: Picture a narrow ledge with a sheer drop-off on either side. The chasm to the right is the way of moral bankruptcy through human strivings for righteousness. The chasm to the left is the way of moral bankruptcy through the ABSENCE of human strivings. On the ledge there is a path—the spiritual life. This path leads to the inner transformation and healing for which we seek. We must never veer off to the right or the left, but stay on the path. The path s fraught with severe difficulties , but also with incredible joys. As we travel on this path, the blessing of God will come upon us and reconstruct us into the image of his son, Jesus Christ. We must always remember that the path does not produce the change—it only puts us in the place where the change can occur.
It's constructed of very, very tall and dense bushes or shrubs that you can't see over or through. And you actually pay money to get a chance to enter the maze and try to find your way out . To some of you that is not entertainment at all. Something you would surely not pay money for. But it is there none the less. and many people constantly pay money for, to go and try to find their way out. It is a tourist attraction.
What is it that attracts people to this maze or this labyrinth? I'm not really sure. I, myself have never done it, but I have talked to people that have. And I've seen movies with similar attractions.
What's interesting about these thing is that the people of Panama City, the residents who live there all the year round are probably not the ones you'll run into inside the maze. They've either done it once, or they've done it so many times they know it like the back of their hand and what's the point. Lots of times people in tourist places don't really do the tourist things.
And so when your in this labyrinth or this maze of bushes in Panama City, and I'm sure other places where they are, you encounter other people just like yourself, who have no idea which way is right, which way to get out. They are just trying and failing and trying and succeeding and finally working their way out.
And that is what we do, that is what we do here. None of us here really know the way. None of us here have really been to the end and been able to come back and show everyone exactly how it is that you are supposed to go or live. A lot of us especially even myself, as I get older want to tell young people how to do it. And the wise ones of us sit back and just let them go.
But just like in the maze in Panama City young can encounter people who don't really know the way out, but can tell you where a dead end was, or where they had success or where they had failure. Go this way or don't go that way. I've been there. that's not a good way to go. But they are traveling together to find the end and that what's we are all doing.
All of you here in relation to the young people of our church or our community, and visa versa you can try all you want to tell people the right way, but it is more all about us telling our own story, where we have been along the maze, the road, the past, of life, of life with God. This is where I found dead end. This is where I had failure, this were I had success. And that is the way. That is part of the way with God.
And so maybe the obvious question tonight is where are you? Where are WE? Are we on the WAY or meandering in one of the chasms described to us by Foster. Bilbo Baggins sings this song in THE LORD OF THE RINGS—
The road goes ever on and on
Down the door from where it began
Now far ahead the road has gone,
And I must follow if I can
Pursuing it with weary feet
Until it joins in some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say
The road goes ever on---the song says—down the door from where it began----and for each of us there was a different door—and we all have different tales to tell of where and how our journeys began.
Let us TELL them. To each other. To the world. It is this storytelling---the telling of where you have been along the road –along the maze where lives are changed and God ‘s hands and feet and mouth are used.
Works Used:
Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster
Wishful Thinking by Frederick Buechner
Whistling in the Dark by Frederick Buechner
Inspiration Sandwich by SARK
Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien
Crossing to Avalon by Jean Shinoda Bolen